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Autumn Leaves

volume 4 number 6

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A Soul's Agony

by Vonda Pelow

It's such a shame
That so much of our pain
Is caused by our own selves;
It's a hard, hard world –
So much stands between you and me –
I try to give a whirl
To inner communication.
But there's a density hiding our intensity
And in hurt retaliation
At not being understood,
We say the fault must lie with the other.
Even a babe can't tell its mother
What it dreams of while it's sleeping
And very seldom even when it's weeping –
And the older we grow
The lesser we know
Of another's heart –
How people part
In tears or in rage
Because the human race
Is still of a tender age –
When I speak to you
Or you cry aloud to me –
How little still is in view
No matter how we try.
I love you so –
How can I let you know?
And yet it's true
You hurt me and I hurt you, too.
I've heard a wise man say –
"Be in another's shoes
Before you judge or blame."
And yet another day
Sees another pain
Laid in your heart by me
Or in mine by someone else.
I try so hard – I think you do, too.
Then why and how often do we fail?
We keep our minds in jail
Barred from sight in a starless night –
And yet when we wish, how can we make the bars fall down?
Our footsteps fall apart, even on the same ground
And God has made you you and another entity –
Why, I moan in silent agony,
Why has this to be so?
And no answer do I hear –
And yet – and yet – there must be a way
To speak of where our hearts lay.

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